Alone

Tears flow so freely anymore, they run down my face like two streams.
Why am I crying? I don't understand, I wonder why I feel so sad...I am not unhappy.
I feel so much joy why do I cry so hard? There are so many around me.
I feel lost, sometimes all alone, hiding how I feel so no one knows.
Wearing a smile day after day, when all I want to do is break down and cry.
Not having anyone to share my fears with, anyone to help me through...
The one I depend on to help me during this time, I can't let him know.
I am so much stronger than this, why am I crying all the time?
I have to control my fears and emotions, or I will lose my mind.
The one who takes all the pain away, yet is the cause stands before me.
How can I feel so lost and alone?